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there is always a kid in us…

 

A friend, D, from my previous workplace is here for a whirlwind work trip. So, R (his intern) and I showed him around Canberra on Sunday afternoon. It was good fun, and I am really glad to be showing anyone from Singapore around Canberra.It will be good to have YW in ANU sometime in the later part of this year.

We covered a fair bit of ground just by walking around. We went around the City, around ANU, my office to take shelter from the rain, around the lake all the way to the National Museum, had dinner at Pancake Parlour, and chilled at Knightsbridge, which really is by far my favourite chill-out place in Canberra (apart from cafes). Yes, that was a lot of walking we did.

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Written by Jasmine

March 21, 2011 at 08:45

说了再见

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天凉了 雨下了
你走了
清楚了 我爱的
遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡着了

想要放 放不掉
泪在飘
你看看 你看看不到
我假装过去不重要
却发现自己办不到

说了再见
才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样
失去你的微笑

口红待在桌角
而你我找不到
若角色对调
你说好不好

说了再见
才发现再也见不到
能不能 就这样
忍着痛 泪不掉

说好陪我到老
永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱
一分一秒都好

你的笑 你的好
脑海里 一直在绕
我的手 忘不了
你手的温度

心碎了一地
捡不回从前的心跳
身陷过去 我无力逃跑

说再见
才发现再也见不到
能不能 就这样
忍着痛 泪不掉

说好陪我到老
永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱
一分一秒都好

This song brings back memories of a very dark period in my life, sometime last year. Looking back on it, it’s funny. But, it certainly wasn’t funny at all when going through that period of time.

I am not one of those who goes about saying there isn’t anything they regret in life. It’s reality. There have been decisions I have made that I wish I never went ahead with. These are moments I do regret from time to time. Decisions like: the first job that I should never have taken up because it was really only in the second job that I felt that I was learning things that I want to and valued as an economist; being away from university for four years was far too long; the list goes on. Well, I am not saying that I am filled with regrets either.

I guess it’s the rain and lack of sleep that’s putting me in such a mood.

Written by Jasmine

March 21, 2011 at 08:26

Posted in About Me, Lyrics

life. caffeine. me.

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Written by Jasmine

March 15, 2011 at 12:59

not happy

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I have honestly reached a point where I am tired of opening my mouth to communicate with some.

Some really need to learn that a “no” means a “no”, not a “yes”, not anything else. Just take today in the lab for example, I was working on the code, while another guy friend is done. So, he turned over and said excitedly “Come and have a look”. Of which, I told him I am busy and still working on my code. He kept doing it for a couple of times, giving my chair a shake and just wouldn’t take “NO” for an answer. Look! Which part of my reply did you not comprehend?

I was busy working on my code, and I did not want to have a look at your code, because there wasn’t any point in doing so. That would have meant looking at the solution.

SERIOUSLY?

This is why I am so tired at the end of each day. Not only do I have to deal with research, my other commitments, there are also guys like such to deal with.

I think I am starting to resemble what is described in this post on “Turning 30 by Andy Rooney” in many ways, which isn’t a bad thing.

Written by Jasmine

March 10, 2011 at 13:36

missing the quiet me.

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apart from this, this is something else I am trying to practise/force upon myself these days.

think more, listen more, talk less. wisdom is one of the rarest commodities these days.

I have become a lot noisier over the years, partly due to work experience where I was trained to present and “defend” my work. Or, perhaps it’s just Canberra. I miss the meaningful conversations in life, the times where I can remain silent, listen and process my thoughts. Give me that anytime, over having to argue in conversations, just because some people just can’t hold normal conversations here in Canberra.

Whatever it is, most of the people in college aren’t going to be seeing much of me these days. I figured that if I need to put in much, much, much more effort and hours to submit in June 2013, no later than that. With 24 hours a day, time is better well spent on the PhD, meaningful conversations, and people that matters.

On a different note, I’m pretty pleased with my run in the gym last night – 2.4km in 15 minutes. Nothing fantastic, but it’s been 2 weeks since my last run. It’s time to start training for this Mother’s Day Classic 10km run that Kas and I are planning to enter, and hopefully the Gold Coast Half Marathon in July.

Written by Jasmine

March 9, 2011 at 09:14

missing home

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I am missing home. I’ve only been back to Canberra for slightly more than two months. Canberra really does strange things to one.

I am keen to use the return flight I have, and redeem a one way trip back to Sydney – all that for a couple of days in Singapore during the Easter break.

Should I?

Written by Jasmine

March 9, 2011 at 07:54

sometimes, i get so angry with myself

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I am feeling so tired that it’s not even funny anymore.

I suppose I have been eating a fair bit of crap food today as well, way past the amount of food I usually take. Sure, it’s still below the number of calories I should be consuming to maintain my current weight. But, I am feeling way too full  :/

So, I really need to be eating less tomorrow, and just stick to the diet.

For now, I really need a nap before I start on work again. And, I have absolutely no idea why I have been feeling so tired! Perhaps it’s the bad sleep I have been getting.

Sometimes, I really do get angry with myself over such things.

Written by Jasmine

March 7, 2011 at 19:36